Return.

That woman is not bothering me anymore. Peace has returned for awhile. Hopefully it lasts. I've been portrayed as........ nevermind.. Noise around the area, caused by little children.. are all boys always that noisy? Was I ever like that? I don't seem to remember.. Keeping a low profile. Harlots and Whores, all fit under the description of her. I shall not say any more.

I kinda like the story. Equinoxial Eclipse. haha.. It is nice.. from my point of view.. that is.. Except......

Refusal

I refuse strongly to whatever sorts of RUBBISH that woman has to give.. Gotta.. get away, or get killed. Plus, all other things that have been happening these days aren't exactly nice things.. right? I'll be leaving from this place to somewhere secluded for awhile, where I can recharge my spirits and spiritual life. Away from this hell till I return on the 7th. Blasphemy.

Gomen

Sorry.. couldn't type this to you yesterday.. Happy Birthday.. Love you.. A lot.. I really thank God for making you on that most special day.. Hope you had a happy day..

Hunger.. Thirst.

Hunger.. for.. The Word of God. Thirst.. for the Spirit.. "Blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness for they shall be filled." Matthew 5:6 Hunger not only after physical things, not only after riches or wealth, but for the saving Word which he has given unto us.. James 1:21 "Wherefore lay apart all filthiness and superfluity of naughtiness, and receive with meekness the engrafted word, which is able to save your souls."

I'm glad I never get hungry.. for physical food..

Matters Of The Heart

This post is to Deborah.. From my POV..

Lenny See Tho Kong Yong.. You have said that you still love him. And that he still loves you.. you may not read this.. How solid can his words be? How can he prove that he will treat you better in the future? He has betrayed your feelings for many times already.. How many times has he made you cry? How many times more will you shed tears for him? Will he love our God like he loves you? Find some evidence.. becoming a TRUE CHRISTIAN.

Xiang Gan.. Your "fairytale prince" He would love you more than you loved him.. Or would he? Having met him only four times before this.. Can you be sure about such a thing? Again, would he love God more than he loves you? Would he want to become a True Christian for you? Does he love you enough to do that? You like the way he's treating you. Does he treat others around you the same way?

Samui..

The weather's turned chilly.. Clouds gather more, Rain falls quickly.. People grow weaker.. like her.. The other.. I have no comment about. Her godbrothers.. getting.. on the worse side of me.. Not that I hate them.. but.. just don't really like them..

Zakusu Fueia.. ma... nan no koto kana? Betsuni.. ii no koo ga shabete hen.. ja..

Shimataze..

Na... Boku wa.. kono POSUTO ni wa zenbu nihon-go ni da wa yo.. dakara, wakaranai no wa, muri sunjyanai-n dakara yo..

Itsu. Ano Mesu wa hontou warui mono da yo.. Soshite.. Onore.. ko-nan de, kanojo wo kizutsukete.. Teme.. Inochi wo iiyan deshou ne?

Futatsu. Ano oroka-mono wa dare to omote ita-n desu ka?

Mitsu. Do nan no O-nii-san desu ka? Kanojo wa mushi wo kirai de, bibi de, date, mada kono jyodan wo...... Ku-so! Anata-tachi wo yurusemasen!

Ah...... moshi boku no hanashii wo wakaranai nara, ii-desu wa.. sono tou-ri da ta-n no yo!

Soshite, CHIARU, aishiteruze.

So warm..

I just feel so warm.. Especially when she hugs me.. I think I sound like a pervert.. Maybe.. She's feeling cold in this rainy weather.. I know her body isn't that strong.. also with the low blood pressure.. maybe thats why she feels cold.. She seems to be in a rather bad mood today.. Nice weather to be sleeping.. Papers are almost over.. then there will be relaxation. Finally..

Argh!!

Sorry.. not much time to blog.. Crystal's bugging us for the computer.. and I've got some help.. from Nexus.. I'm not computer illiterate!! ok.. gotta go now..

Conscience

Just do what your conscience (and your God) tells you to. Its not that we don't hate, its that we try not to. We DO hate. Hate sin. If one is sinning, then rebuke the person. If the person doesn't listen, the person is a fool. (Proverbs 28 : 13) This is a good verse. If you read it, you'll surely know why..

Love you Chel.

Rather pissed off..

I overheard the whole conversation, (not on purpose) and am rather angry about it.. lets see.. the meaning of the word 'bitch', (sorry) is either 'female dog', or 'spiteful person'. is that a vulgarity? I don't think so.. the others.. I have not much idea about. Calling someone, yelling at her? What kind of attitude is that? You don't like people to speak (or type) that way on your tagboard, and you call someone up and yell at her. How contradictary is this?

Chel, sorry that I am interfering in this...

Shoots..

Haven't been posting in a very long while.. Well... Erm.. Lets see.. I'm just very tight right now. (please do not just anyhow assume the meaning of "tight")

I feel torn when you're hurt, for not being able to protect you. At least I can still continue to say words from my heart to you. I know you might feel that I've been saying things just for the sake of comforting you, whether they be true or not. I know that I might just be a vapour in your life and may disappear soon. I know all this, and I want to tell you that, all I have ever said, typed or shown to you, is and was true. My heart is yours. When yours hurts, mine will too..

Gratz

I still remember this short form.. 1 that we used to use when we were younger.. Gratz on becoming highest noter in choir, Chel.. for that particular person.. i still dont really like being around.. i might sound biased.. bt.. be careful.. ^_^ love you..

thoughts..

Chel.. the first thing i want everyday.. is to hear your voice.
the last thing i want for the night.. is to see your face.
The midday.. is to be always with you..
to be there for you..
to be there to listen to you..
to be there to talk to you too..

I'm nt just with you when you're alone..
neither is she..
anyway..
thx for being with me too.

I love you.

Just to tell u..

I found these lyrics...

When it rains, I'll be your umbrella.
When its windy, I'll be your wall...

Then I added this.

When you fall, I'll pick you up, hold you close, lend you strength.

Never give up on what you believe in. fight for it too.. I'll always support you. I'm here to listen to you. I'm here to keep you close to him as well.. "Be not afraid." He is with us.

Anniversary

Happy 2nd year n 5th mth anniversary! This bond will never be forgotten. Every second is joy. Every minute is treasure. Every hour is happiness. Every day is strenghtening of bond. Every week is smiles. Every month is togetherness. Every year is memory. Every period together shows our LOVE.

Our first

Things started between us in........ 7 Mar 2005. Chel, every 7th is an anniversary. our anniversary... ive got not much to type about.. now.. this is the first.