Chance

Hi... Please stop thinking too much about the... "fe-----"... It's nothing much, really... Plus I don't think I'm too glad about the appearance of the newest person... even though he is a guy...

Protector to her... Is there really nothing much I can do but just stay by her side always? Or by being just here... am I already being her emotional shield? I want to be her wall, who she can lean on, who will protect her from all winds.

Too many... temptations... too many chances... ARGH... I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!

Post script: The last sentence has nothing to do with the rest of the post.

Another year

Time flies quickly. Maybe its because I don't post much, but it seems not too long ago when I last posted on our anniversary. I know today is also a family day for you, I did spend time with you, bu maybe not as much this year. I'll make it up to you somehow. During this year... I'll definitely spend more time with you than in previous years. Its a promise, because I love you.

Once again

Separation of the minds. Another game of 'guess what I'm thinking'. Hated dumps of rubbish. Tears not spilled but already heart-rent. Psycologically hurt. Physically hurt. Mentally tormented. Rain.

Why can't these go forever?

Must she suffer again?

I know people are reading this.

Valentines

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Chel is mine,
Now go away, shoo.

Speaking on the phone with her.................... Hearing a sad voice whisper through the phone as she sat by the stairwell sobbing, trying not to he seen or heard. That was yesterday...

Love is self-sacrifice. Heartfelt sadness then spreads.

I love you. Don't cry anymore.

Dessert

A sweet cold cup of dessert sits in front of me while the droplets of water quickly condense on it. Here I am sitting down on the chair with her. And I'm losing control.

Lunar New Year

We hit the Lunar New Year with a Solar Eclipse, from about 5-6pm today. The overlaping circles of light and darkness cool the earth. People, families, friends, gather to celebrate this festive season. Yet through the midst of these many people, I am still remembered by you day and night. I thank you.